Smile and the World Smiles

Thoughts:

by Housewife4Palestine


I realize I had not been doing much writing these days but for some reason this is a time of many test’s and reflection of certain elements in my life. Or as some may say, how I am doing thus far.

When I was even a child when I had to endure sometimes very hard tests the one I always turned to was Allah (God) because to me His wisdom would always get me through as well as even being a child I felt a kind of peace and comfort when I turned to Him for solace.

I have to make a very hard decision that stems from the very early stages of me as a child that has been a heartache that I had to carry with me into adulthood, mainly because when I was younger I did not know the answer to what to do in this particular situation. But in my thinking today, after all these years the best solution is to put it behind me and as they say just walk away. When it comes to other people especially very bad people, you wonder what took you so long to come to this resolution, someday I hope I have the answer to that.

I was also thinking today, of some older ladies who are very American that after 9/11, then Bush invading Iraq how they was afraid of anyone who was Muslim or Arab and what made it hard for me is in the apartment building I lived just across the hall from most of these ladies. I must admit, I kept some what a low profile not to offend them or upset them any further because it was a time when it seems the world had turned upside down and so many people was confused. Myself included somewhat.

I had the chance recently to visit again with some of these ladies; for some time had passed that I had moved away and went on with my life.

The one thing, I was awe inspired was a representative of these ladies for sometime had wished so much to apologize to me for not understanding. I always have said that many people misunderstand much about the Eastern part of the world and apparently they agreed. When these self same ladies where sick or in need, I always tried to find a way to make their illness better or tried to make their life a little easier when I could.

When effected them most is remembering the kind of person I was at that time and the recent events when Israel had not only attacked the Palestinian people, but their invasion into Lebanon seemed to taught so many good people what is really going on in the Middle East. What actually made me sad was this lady was actually so sorry for their misunderstanding of me and the Arab people as a whole and it seems they understood through me that we are remarkable people.

I have always understood there is good and bad people in every society and I am sure I have said this before, but to group any people as all bad or all good is to disillusion oneself to what is the truth.

I happened to listen to someone I am thinking was a man with the oppression that all Muslim men are perverts and he insisted he had proof due to the fact someone wrote something on the net through Google search, which in my opinion someone so bent to find something like this puts them into question.

Especially, even I would say with enough trash on the net these days to feed anyone lie’s or perversion. Also, these people with Islamophobia; I would hope become a thing of the past like a dinosaur because lately the only time you hear these people mouth off is on the net and I would hope they get tired of having their brains rattle around in their heads. For please excuse me but that is how they sound many times as they repeat themselves with such foul language coming into view. And someday, I would hope like those ladies they would learn and not be so full of hate and sorrow.

I went out kind of window shopping to think like most women and what better way to think then window shop then sit for a little time with a good book and a Mocha cappuccino.

Oh, every once in awhile look at the people passing on the sidewalk in front of me with their packages or the children across the way playing in the fountain on this hot summer day. I actually in my minds eyes still see the happiness on their little faces and still hear their laughter in the memory from my ears.

What I came to a conclusion for the day, is not look for the bad things about anything in this life; but think of the happiness and the dreams that became a reality. What better could one ask for or going back to the decision of the past that caused great pain, it is far easier to close and lock a door like this; so the beauty illuminates, then keep beating yourself up in what to do.